"Ben, I don't know what this is about," Mom replied. "She's… she's always been emotional. Maybe she —"
"Don't lie to me!" The words erupted, my voice echoing off the porch walls. "You've never liked her. You've always found ways to undermine her, criticize her —"
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"I've only ever tried to help!" Her voice broke, tears spilling over her cheeks.
I turned away, my gut churning. I couldn't trust her words anymore. Whatever had happened between them had driven Suzie to leave. And now I was left to pick up the pieces.
That night, after settling Callie and Jessica in their cribs, I sat at the kitchen table with the note in one hand and a whiskey in the other. My mother's protests rang in my ears, but I couldn't let them drown out the question looping in my mind: What did you do, Mom?
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I thought back to our family gatherings, and the small barbs my mother would throw Suzie's way. Suzie had laughed them off, but I could see now, too late, how they must have cut her.
I started digging, both literally and metaphorically.
My sorrow and longing for my missing wife deepened as I looked through her things. I found her jewelry box in the closet and set it aside, then noticed a slip of paper peeking out beneath the lid.
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When I opened it, I found a letter to Suzie in my mother's handwriting. My heart pounded as I read:
"Suzie, you'll never be good enough for my son. You've trapped him with this pregnancy, but don't think for a second you can fool me. If you care about them, you'll leave before you ruin their lives."
My hand shook as I dropped the letter. This was it. This was why she'd left. My mother had been tearing her down behind my back. I replayed every interaction, every moment I'd dismissed as harmless. How blind had I been?
It was almost midnight, but I didn't care. I went to the guest room and banged on the door until Mom opened it.
"How could you?" I waved the letter in her face. "All this time, I thought you were just being overbearing, but no, you've been bullying Suzie for years, haven't you?"
Her face paled as she scanned the letter. "Ben, listen to me —"
"No!" I cut her off. "You listen to me. Suzie left because of you. Because you made her feel worthless. And now she's gone, and I'm here trying to raise two babies on my own."
"I only wanted to protect you," she whispered. "She wasn't good enough —"
"She's the mother of my children! You don't get to decide who's good enough for me or them. You're done here, Mom. Pack your things. Get out."
